Forget Her.

All day I spend my time with your thoughts in my head. All day I try do forget.

Things I can’t forget. I don’t want to forget. Unbelievable unique memories. Your smile, your kiss, your face, your touch. I love you. Since I met you the first time. Maybe you know this. I don’t think so. World has changed wrong in the last months. Everything went into the wrong direction. I’m at the epicenter of that dreadful earthquake that hit my life. I’m not really helpless, but I would like to get some help from you. But you sit at home, at your small apartement. Smiling because of your life. Doing your works for school. And maybe you think one or two minutes a day of me.

Maybe these one or two minutes are exaggeration. But I think of you nearly every time I’m able to think. My whole life, the whole day you’re in my brain. You don’t want to get out of it. And I love it to think of our wonderful memories. The day of our first kiss, the first time we slept together in one bed, our prom. Everything seemed so perfect till. Till the end. An end I really can’t understand. Maybe I’m too stupid. Maybe I love you too much.

But why can’t you love me. Why can we give us another try. It doesn’t hurt anyone. You don’t have to give too much. And I had the possibility to feel you again. To feel, that you really try to love me. The way that I do.

Now I’m gonna close my eyes. And I know, that when I woke up, the world still rotate. The grass is green nonetheless. And you will sit at home, at your small apartement. Thinking of your upcoming life. I will sit at my community service. Looking at the few pictures I still have, reading textes I’ve written in that time. And I’ll try to forget, that you ever have existed.

But damn. I can’t forget. I don’t want to.