Always. On My Mind.

Since the breakup of my first real relationship to a woman, I’m trying to find a new wonderwall. Maybe you don’t know, but the song “Wonderwall” and its meaning is always on my mind. I sing this song nearly every day and I love every version of it.

Every day I hope that this day I’ll find my new girlfriend. More oftne than not I’m without success. And if i fell in love with a girl, I’m too shy to speak to her. That’s a real big problem. Because I’ve lost so many weeks and months of my life, to follow a girl without any reasons. I try to spend as much time as possible with her, most of the time I’m lying next to her, watching stars or watching DVD. But somewhere along the way I recognize that my feelings only have a one-way-ticket. I don’t get anything back. This feeling and the following thoughts suck.

I believe in love, that’s a fact. But more and more I’ve some doubts. I want to fell in love again. I want to kiss a girl again. I want to lie next to a girl, naked, with the cold, smoothy skin. I want to give my whole love to someone, who really loves me. It’s hard. But the love is always on my mind. So … where are you?

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This. Is My Life. Part One.

According to my main blog “Neon Wilderness” I want to start to write about my life. My past, my present and my near future. I don’t know whether it’s interesting for you, but it’s a good English training for me.

Welcome Back. In This Solitude.

Well, today I had to get back to Bad Goisern, the place where I have to do my community service. Bad Goisern is more than 40 kilometres away from my hometown Pinsdorf. By the way … the Wiki-page of this town was written by just4ikarus. And well, that’s me. Close to heaven, I feel the rain, although everything is still dry. But it’s a fact, that today the rain will come intensly. And if not, I always can blame it on the weather man. Well, now I will update the page of Bad Goisern, because it’s a little embarassing. But, guys, I’ll be back.

Well, it’s done. The “Bad Goisern” page does content more information. Up to now, I have startet a petition, because Steve Jobs and Apple want to renounce the apple-key on the keyboard of the new iMac. I would be very happy, if you would sign the petition. Erm, in one hour and a half, it’s midday. Then I’ll eat my snack and I’ll wait till 3:30 pm, because then, my working-day is over. Well, working-day is the wrong decision.

Now, it’s raining. And i still don’t know what to do with myself. Drinking Coke, eating snacks and smoking become boring // exhausting too. Well, my plans for this week are, that I want to go to a small music-festival next to me. With more than 30 artists who play reggae, hip-hop, fun-punk and something like this. This will last from 23rd to 25th of August. And I really think that this could be very funny. Hehe.